THE PLACE OF NOWHERE

GREAT PRETENDER

WISH I COULD SEE YOU AGAIN

ALL ALONE

ALL ALONE

All alone in the rain

Mending the pain

Because of the time

That slowly gone

Yes you left

And I never felt

That I am alone

The time I am with you

Pouring tears never help

The pain that I kept

It’s sad that you not with me

But I should go on

How can I mend the broken heart?

How can I stay alone in the dark?

How can I continue?

The life that is now messed up

I will travel with a heavy burden

I will continue the journey

Looking for something

That I still don’t know

I still wish that you are here

I still hope that I can hold you

I still dream of being with you

Even you are gone

CYCLE

Rain drops

Tears fall

Heart cries

And life dies

Trees grows

Flowers bloom

Leaves are green

And it all ends up dry

Rivers flow

Bends in every valley

Cross every mountain

Ends up in a wild blue ocean

A child is born

Loved

Broken

And gone

Love grows

Pampered

Shared

Lasts and gone

PRECIOUS . . . GONE

PRECIOUS . . . GONE

As I look up the sky

I remember the times

When you and I

Dream together as one.

My tears start to fall

Like rain in the summer day

Flows like a river in the desert

That dries in an open sea.

I would like to reach you

But I know you are far away

I want to hug you

But you are not beside me

It’s like a nightmare while you are awake

If I can only fly

To have you

If I can only be beside you

To hug you and say how much I love you

It will never come true

Because you are gone

Gone and will never come back

All I have is none from you

My love turned to dust

Blown by the wind

Dead and buried

Like a long lost memory.

I LOVE YOU GOODBYE

Like the flowers that blooms

It starts from a bud

It shows its beauty

Then it withers

Just like the tide

It comes rushing to the shore

Kisses it

And Leaves

Just like the wind

It breezes

And lets you feel the comfort

Then it’s gone.

Like the love

You want to see it forever

But there are times that doesn’t allow

So you let it go.

The love that I gave to you

Was so precious

So pure

So clean

I let it flow just for you

To the purest I can do

But you let it go

You find someone new.

I told myself that I will let you go

Because happiness is what I look forward for you

I hope I did the right thing to do

But I know that I will miss you so

Even though I love you

I will let you go

And so I say Good bye

Even I do love you so.

  

WITHERED BUT GROWING

 WITHERED BUT GROWING

I chose to live

But they want me just to exist

To exist like I am nothing

Nothing and not worthy

I have tried to be happy

But they want me to be sad

To be sad that I should be in grief

In grief that I should call death

I want to be thankful that I have family

But that family has never been felt

I never felt that they are there for me

For I am alone like a weed unwanted in a field

I want to show that I am worthy to live

But they never show appreciation

Because they say I am not worthy

Since I am not wanted in this world

I never ask God why

I because I should be thankful I exist

I exist that I can see myself live

Live the life even though they never wanted

I have tried to cry for alms of love

But they give me sadness

I cried for my rights

But they gave me unrighteousness

I told myself

I can grow even I am withered

For I know I am here

Here in this world and I have a purpose.

EVEN SINNERS HAVE SOUL

EVEN SINNERS HAS SOUL

Once I was so happy

I thought I found life

They told me it was not life at all

For I have chosen to live a wrong one

I have followed a path

I thought am taking the right journey

But they said it was to darkness

And so I did stop

I have tried to ask where I should go

One told me here

But the other told me there

I am confused

I tried to listen

But I just hear them say

I tried to speak

But they never listen

I chose my own path

I thought it was happiness

Maybe it was

But for just meantime

Maybe I am just weak

But they told me I am strong

And thus I believe

But then it was really wrong

I came back to say am sorry

But that sorry wasn’t enough

They cant accept me for I have sinned

But I told them “Even sinners have soul”

WISH I CAN HOLD YOU

I FEEL YOU NEAR

YET YOU ARE SO FAR
I FEEL YOU ARE WITH ME
BUT NOBODY IS BESIDE ME

 I CAN SEE YOU FROM AFAR

BUT I CANT BE NEAR
I TRIED TO SHOUT
HOPE THAT YOU CAN HEAR ME
BUT I FEEL THAT YOU’RE DEAF

 I TRIED TO RUN TO REACH YOU

BUT MY STRENGTH IS NOT ENOUGH
I TRIED AND TRY
BUT NOTHING SEEMS TO BE ENOUGH

 I DID WHAT I CAN

BUT STILL NOTHING WORKS
NOTHING CAN I CAN DO
TO BE NEAR YOU

 I HOPE THAT I CAN HOLD YOU

I WISH THAT YOU CAN STAY BESIDE ME
BUT THAT WAS A DREAM
BUT STILL THAT DREAM IS WHAT I HOLD ON TOO

 I WISH I CAN HOLD YOU

TO BE NEAR YOU FOREVER
HOPE THAT I CAN STAY BY YOURSIDE
FOR ME NOT TO LOOSE YOU FOREVER

 I WISH THAT I CAN HOLD YOU

I WISH I CAN
I WISH I CAN DO THAT
I REALLY WISH I DO
 

WITHOUT YOU

I close my eyes to see you

And I did saw you from afar
I did try to reach you
But it’s impossible

 The distance between us

Cannot be measured
Thousands of steps is not enough
But still I tried

 I hug myself to feel you

I can feel your warmth
But you’re not here
I know you’re not here

 I open my eyes and I saw the truth

I am alone
Alone without you
Weak
So weak without you

 How can I be there?

How can I be with you?
How can I mend this broken heart?
I hope I can without you

 I wish I am an angel

I wish I can fly
But without you I cannot
Because you are my wind

 I am empty

I am alone
I am nothing
Without you

ME. . . . . ALONE

I started to think

Why should I be here?

Why should I be in this vast of challenge?

Why?

 

I started to walk

Staring in each corner of streets

I saw them smiling and laughing

Why?

 

I sat down and think

Why I should be like this?

Why I should be here?

Why should I be alone?

 

They say life is a journey

Yes it is, but should I be alone?

Should I be with someone?

Should I just carry myself?

 

I should go on

I should fight

I should stand

I should and I will.

 

Mountains maybe so high

Oceans maybe vast

Roads maybe long

But I have only one life that I should carry on

 

Yes I am alone

Yes I am one

But I can fight

And stand for my life.