THE PLACE OF NOWHERE

WISH I COULD SEE YOU AGAIN

ALL ALONE

ALL ALONE

All alone in the rain

Mending the pain

Because of the time

That slowly gone

Yes you left

And I never felt

That I am alone

The time I am with you

Pouring tears never help

The pain that I kept

It’s sad that you not with me

But I should go on

How can I mend the broken heart?

How can I stay alone in the dark?

How can I continue?

The life that is now messed up

I will travel with a heavy burden

I will continue the journey

Looking for something

That I still don’t know

I still wish that you are here

I still hope that I can hold you

I still dream of being with you

Even you are gone

A SMILE OF BROKEN HEART

I dance under the rain

For them not to see my tears

For them not to know

That I smile while I cry

I mingle with happy people

To forget what you have made

To smile even am broken

I know it’s hard but it needs to end

I said goodbye

But it doesn’t mean I don’t love you

I said goodbye

To let be free and happy

You may see me smile

Yes I smile

Because I see you happy

But that is a smile of a broken heart

Broken into pieces

That it will take long time

To mend and to forget

But I know I did it right for you

I try not to cry

I try not to shed a tear

I try not to be sad

And show a smile of a broken heart

I wish you well

Just be free

Be happy

While I smile with my broken heart.

PRECIOUS . . . GONE

PRECIOUS . . . GONE

As I look up the sky

I remember the times

When you and I

Dream together as one.

My tears start to fall

Like rain in the summer day

Flows like a river in the desert

That dries in an open sea.

I would like to reach you

But I know you are far away

I want to hug you

But you are not beside me

It’s like a nightmare while you are awake

If I can only fly

To have you

If I can only be beside you

To hug you and say how much I love you

It will never come true

Because you are gone

Gone and will never come back

All I have is none from you

My love turned to dust

Blown by the wind

Dead and buried

Like a long lost memory.

WITHERED BUT GROWING

 WITHERED BUT GROWING

I chose to live

But they want me just to exist

To exist like I am nothing

Nothing and not worthy

I have tried to be happy

But they want me to be sad

To be sad that I should be in grief

In grief that I should call death

I want to be thankful that I have family

But that family has never been felt

I never felt that they are there for me

For I am alone like a weed unwanted in a field

I want to show that I am worthy to live

But they never show appreciation

Because they say I am not worthy

Since I am not wanted in this world

I never ask God why

I because I should be thankful I exist

I exist that I can see myself live

Live the life even though they never wanted

I have tried to cry for alms of love

But they give me sadness

I cried for my rights

But they gave me unrighteousness

I told myself

I can grow even I am withered

For I know I am here

Here in this world and I have a purpose.

EVEN SINNERS HAVE SOUL

EVEN SINNERS HAS SOUL

Once I was so happy

I thought I found life

They told me it was not life at all

For I have chosen to live a wrong one

I have followed a path

I thought am taking the right journey

But they said it was to darkness

And so I did stop

I have tried to ask where I should go

One told me here

But the other told me there

I am confused

I tried to listen

But I just hear them say

I tried to speak

But they never listen

I chose my own path

I thought it was happiness

Maybe it was

But for just meantime

Maybe I am just weak

But they told me I am strong

And thus I believe

But then it was really wrong

I came back to say am sorry

But that sorry wasn’t enough

They cant accept me for I have sinned

But I told them “Even sinners have soul”

MY EVERYTHING

 

I feel the breeze

I feel the warmth

I wish I could fly

But I cant.

 

I see sunlight

Sunlight that starts to shine

Through the darkness

I see lights

 

I hear birds sing

I hear tides rushing

I wish I could go

But I cant

 

I wish I can

I hope I can do

But I cant

Something is missing.

 

Something is missing

That stops me from doing everything

That something is my everything

And that everything is you.

ME

 

 

You see me smile

Yes I smile but it doesn’t mean am happy

You see me cry

But it doesn’t mean am sad

You may see me jolly

But it doesn’t mean am ok

Because am not a river that you know where it ends

I am not the moon that you know it only shines at night

Not even the sun that shines daily.

I am me, and nobody knows who I am.

 

You may see me alone

But it doesn’t mean am lonely

You may see me with somebody

But still I am lonely

I may need a companion

But it doesn’t mean it will be forever

Because what I need is somebody who understand me

Not somebody that I need to understand

This is me and this is my life

I hope somebody will understand.