IF I COULD SEE YOU AGAIN

IF I COULD SEE YOU AGAIN

We said goodbyes

And so it goes

We departed

And never meet again

It has been a long time

I hope you still remember me

The one who loved you

The one always on your side

If I ever see you again

I will tell you how much I love you

I will not let time pass

Without showing how dear you are to me

If I can only turn back time

And I will meet you again

I will make sure that every moment

Is a moment that we will treasure.

If I could see you again

I will make sure that our love will prosper

Like the flower in bloom

And will never wither

I will ever see you again

I will make sure that every moment

Is music in tune.

With beat and harmony

If I could see you again

But the will be when?

A SMILE OF BROKEN HEART

I dance under the rain

For them not to see my tears

For them not to know

That I smile while I cry

I mingle with happy people

To forget what you have made

To smile even am broken

I know it’s hard but it needs to end

I said goodbye

But it doesn’t mean I don’t love you

I said goodbye

To let be free and happy

You may see me smile

Yes I smile

Because I see you happy

But that is a smile of a broken heart

Broken into pieces

That it will take long time

To mend and to forget

But I know I did it right for you

I try not to cry

I try not to shed a tear

I try not to be sad

And show a smile of a broken heart

I wish you well

Just be free

Be happy

While I smile with my broken heart.

LOVE WILL TAKE YOU HOME

I now you heard stories

I know you want to go

I know your mind is traveling

I know you want to come home

Your love will take you home

Home is the place

The place of your comfort

A place you always dream

Home is you will always go

In times of darkness and rain

Thunder and lightning

Home will always be your shelter

Even you are far away

Just close your eyes

And love will take you there

The place you always call Home

When love takes you home

Everything changes

Everything feels alright

Even you are far away

Even you can’t reach by your hand

Home will still be there

Waiting for you

Love will take you home.

PRECIOUS . . . GONE

PRECIOUS . . . GONE

As I look up the sky

I remember the times

When you and I

Dream together as one.

My tears start to fall

Like rain in the summer day

Flows like a river in the desert

That dries in an open sea.

I would like to reach you

But I know you are far away

I want to hug you

But you are not beside me

It’s like a nightmare while you are awake

If I can only fly

To have you

If I can only be beside you

To hug you and say how much I love you

It will never come true

Because you are gone

Gone and will never come back

All I have is none from you

My love turned to dust

Blown by the wind

Dead and buried

Like a long lost memory.

WITHERED BUT GROWING

 WITHERED BUT GROWING

I chose to live

But they want me just to exist

To exist like I am nothing

Nothing and not worthy

I have tried to be happy

But they want me to be sad

To be sad that I should be in grief

In grief that I should call death

I want to be thankful that I have family

But that family has never been felt

I never felt that they are there for me

For I am alone like a weed unwanted in a field

I want to show that I am worthy to live

But they never show appreciation

Because they say I am not worthy

Since I am not wanted in this world

I never ask God why

I because I should be thankful I exist

I exist that I can see myself live

Live the life even though they never wanted

I have tried to cry for alms of love

But they give me sadness

I cried for my rights

But they gave me unrighteousness

I told myself

I can grow even I am withered

For I know I am here

Here in this world and I have a purpose.

EVEN SINNERS HAVE SOUL

EVEN SINNERS HAS SOUL

Once I was so happy

I thought I found life

They told me it was not life at all

For I have chosen to live a wrong one

I have followed a path

I thought am taking the right journey

But they said it was to darkness

And so I did stop

I have tried to ask where I should go

One told me here

But the other told me there

I am confused

I tried to listen

But I just hear them say

I tried to speak

But they never listen

I chose my own path

I thought it was happiness

Maybe it was

But for just meantime

Maybe I am just weak

But they told me I am strong

And thus I believe

But then it was really wrong

I came back to say am sorry

But that sorry wasn’t enough

They cant accept me for I have sinned

But I told them “Even sinners have soul”

THE LIFE OF A FOOL

THE LIFE OF A FOOL

I have tried to do everything just to please everyone

But that everything is not enough

I have done most of it just for them to accept me

But that most is not even recognized

I have tried to smile to hide the pain

But still everything hurts

I have tried to be strong but still am weak.

I have cried under the rain

Just to hide my tears

I slept in daytime

Just for me not to see the world

I have mingled to everyone

Just for me to show that am not alone

I have never shed a tear

Just to show to them that am strong

I live for them

But they never been there for me

I loved them looking forward that they will love me

But that was never true

I hated myself

And they are happy that I did

I loved and lived my life

And they shed tears for I am alive

I said I am not alone

But I am still lonely

I said I am happy

But the truth is am sad

I said I am living

But they know am just existing

I want to live

But want to see me die.

WISH I CAN HOLD YOU

I FEEL YOU NEAR

YET YOU ARE SO FAR
I FEEL YOU ARE WITH ME
BUT NOBODY IS BESIDE ME

 I CAN SEE YOU FROM AFAR

BUT I CANT BE NEAR
I TRIED TO SHOUT
HOPE THAT YOU CAN HEAR ME
BUT I FEEL THAT YOU’RE DEAF

 I TRIED TO RUN TO REACH YOU

BUT MY STRENGTH IS NOT ENOUGH
I TRIED AND TRY
BUT NOTHING SEEMS TO BE ENOUGH

 I DID WHAT I CAN

BUT STILL NOTHING WORKS
NOTHING CAN I CAN DO
TO BE NEAR YOU

 I HOPE THAT I CAN HOLD YOU

I WISH THAT YOU CAN STAY BESIDE ME
BUT THAT WAS A DREAM
BUT STILL THAT DREAM IS WHAT I HOLD ON TOO

 I WISH I CAN HOLD YOU

TO BE NEAR YOU FOREVER
HOPE THAT I CAN STAY BY YOURSIDE
FOR ME NOT TO LOOSE YOU FOREVER

 I WISH THAT I CAN HOLD YOU

I WISH I CAN
I WISH I CAN DO THAT
I REALLY WISH I DO
 

ME

 

 

You see me smile

Yes I smile but it doesn’t mean am happy

You see me cry

But it doesn’t mean am sad

You may see me jolly

But it doesn’t mean am ok

Because am not a river that you know where it ends

I am not the moon that you know it only shines at night

Not even the sun that shines daily.

I am me, and nobody knows who I am.

 

You may see me alone

But it doesn’t mean am lonely

You may see me with somebody

But still I am lonely

I may need a companion

But it doesn’t mean it will be forever

Because what I need is somebody who understand me

Not somebody that I need to understand

This is me and this is my life

I hope somebody will understand.